Insecurities, fear and Loss:
INSECURITIES: we all have them but it doesn’t make them easy to overcome. When there is extra stress it makes fear and insecurities from long ago come back, when we are run down or don’t know when to say no. Even if you think you’re doing great and accepting and loving yourself…. Then BAM!! something happens that triggers fear or feelings to make you feel inadequate and unworthy. It can be something logical to your mind but rationally things tend to seem worse in a heightened state of emotions or troubled feelings.
Through recent experiences, of my greatest fear being made a reality, coming from the loss of a special and important person, I have been made more aware of my insecurities, which I had believed were resolved. There is the positive in the fear and lose which are usually believed primarily as negative. To be made aware of such struggles and limitations especially of the mind is a huge opportunity to grow and overcome current and future challenges. Investing energy, thought and time in healing, acknowledging and understanding these troubling thoughts and feelings will have invaluable consequences. In the midst of the rain of weight, doom, pressure and inadequacy, it’s difficult not to feel overwhelmed and demotivated but to change the focus and perspective to the positive outcome these feelings being noticed can present, can fulfil and achieve unbelievable things in yourself and your life.
Fear: one of the most limiting feelings in the world, can cause such a diminished quality of life and links to anxiety, manifesting some nasty physical deterrents; hyperventilating, shaking, pain in various areas, blurred vision, dizziness, confusion and nausea. These all start from a belief and perspective of the situation or possible situation, which is from our own thoughts and choices. It’s easy to say in theory that we can master and control our thoughts, beliefs and feelings but it actually takes time, consistency and the desire to do what ever necessary to make it so, which reminds me of the English proverb: ” You can lead a horse to water but you can’t force it to drink.” We all must choose to actively contribute to the control of our inside world to have the skills and ability to create and control our outside world, which reminds me of the quote “ignorance is bliss.” which I don’t agree with. I believe to take responsibility for our shadows, past, thoughts and actions is liberating and can achieve much greater bliss than the ignorance and auto pilot life that so many can lead. The journey in the moments may seem more challenging but the overall experience, liberation and freedom from our inner shackles and dis empowering beliefs will only lead to a more fulfilling, peaceful and harmonious life.
Loss: To be stripped of something dear to you with no power to stop it, is one of the most heart wrenching, stressful and demotivating things in life. In my experience and stories from others, acceptance can be our worst nightmare or lack of, another thing linked to our belief system. Our mind and previous programming has many stories it replays, telling us things shouldn’t be as they are or we want it different, perhaps a higher knowledge that we do have more control then we are led to believe but in which way we can use it, is often what makes us fail. My most recent loss is a great one and I am still a little shocked at how well I’ve mentally and emotionally, dealt and managed my grief, to the point of motivation to create positive change in my life and self development. It is through my search for understanding, knowledge and balance that I feel I have found ways to accept what is out of my control and not waste energy on it but to direct and increase the potentials for positive outcomes in myself and my surroundings that I have chosen to control.
We can all be our own worst enemy at times and it is quite a common habit and automatic response to avoid the pain, suffering and discomfort in our lives but they serve as an equal balance for the joy, love and comfort we receive if we embrace it for it’s full purpose. Insecurities, fear and lose are all parts of life for everyone of us but today, in this moment what can you do to feel empowered, liberated and unchained from your mind and beliefs, possibly not even your own?
If I leave you with anything it’s this, belief is powerful to harm us or to arm us, only we in ourselves can change or create our beliefs.
With Peace, Love and Light.
Namaste – Infinite blessings